Half of my clothes don't fit. I don't even quite know how this happened, but it's quite frustrating to get dressed in the mornings. I vowed once never to buy a larger size because one size leads to the next, as surely as one Pringle leads to an empty can. (I'm just saying.)
I really did start this month with good intentions and here it is, almost over. I haven't weighed myself in a few days, but my last weight was 195. That's not much different from my weight on July 1. Even worse, I haven't exercised a single day this month! No, really! I haven't. I removed my focus from exercise, turned it to diet and abandoned exercise entirely.
How dumb.
Well, it is what it is. I realize that my wonky work schedule is crazy . . . and come September, I hope to have a more even schedule. Instead of working 30 hours in three days, I'd like to work 9 hours four days a week, then have a four hour days. Also, my youngest children will both be in school (the 5-year old only in half-days kindergarten) and I am devoting those hours to exercise.
So, soon everything will change. I just have to hang on . In two weeks, we have a 10-day vacation. Then only two weeks later, school stars! I am just going to bide my time and keep my weight steady.
Sometimes, that's the best you can do.
I hear ya, Mel. Scotland was not so good to me in the eating department. Now that I'm home, I'm starting fresh.
Love and miss ya.
Posted by: AnnieBlogs | July 27, 2008 at 05:38 AM
ok
Im delurking to prod ya :)
start today. TINY STEPS.
doing a staircase (home? out?) twice instead of once.
marching in place while talking on the phone.
pacing?
I SO GET what youre saying above (an the mamapart kills the BEST of intentions at times for me) but still wanted to cheer you forward.
Miz.
Posted by: MizFit | July 27, 2008 at 09:14 AM
Hi, Mel! I'm right there with ya, girlie! This last week I have dumped havoc on my body. I've eaten foods that are too rich and my body has not appreciated it. And my bike just sits there as I walk past it every night. I will get on it and ride this next week, I will, I will!
Posted by: Tena | July 27, 2008 at 01:06 PM
I think summer is the hardest time to be consistent with anything, and I applaud you for keeping your health at the forefront regardless of motivation/success at the scale. September is coming! I don't know how you keep the hours you do, but I am with you for half-day kindergarden ME TIME!
Posted by: Lynne | July 28, 2008 at 03:44 AM
Hold, yes...but keep your eyes on the prize....
...slow and steady wins the race!
I am betting on those concepts...
Sandy
Posted by: Sandy McCann | July 28, 2008 at 05:33 AM
It's so easy to say, and so hard to actually ACCEPT that you can't magically go back in time and do things differently in the past. All we can do is start tomorrow, or today, by doing something just a little bit better than yesterday, and it will all come out OK.
Posted by: Brianne | July 28, 2008 at 09:53 AM
It's great that you realize what your problem is, and are making a plan to get back on track. You are not in denial--that's a good thing! You'll get back on track and do what you need to do. You have been through alot of changes in your life the last few months. That's enough to make anyone's diet and exercise plan all wonky.
Posted by: Missie | July 28, 2008 at 11:05 AM
Mel, I know you are discouraged, but you can gain control of this weight-train! If you can raise children who are kind and respectful, then you definitely can do this. But may I gently (and with a very pregnant-bossy tone) remind you that you CAN take little steps toward getting back on track. This is not an all or nothing deal. Good luck sister.
B
Posted by: Barbara | July 29, 2008 at 06:44 AM
I too have been living in the pearls of frustration, actually more like self-anger. One good thing for you and me, we haven't been defeated and haven't given up hope. I too agree with the clothing sizes by the way.
Posted by: Sheri | July 31, 2008 at 09:16 AM