The good, the bad and the baked goods

It's not that I intend to be silent here.  It's just that once Monday comes, my week collapses like a mudslide, covering houses, cars and small children.  I've been putting in extra time on my job, finally shutting off my computer at 1:30 a.m. or later . . . then waking up hours later to take my daughter to school.  Then I take a nap and start my day all over again.  I think I'll blog before work, but don't give myself enough time.  Then I think maybe after work but then suddenly it's 1:30 a.m., too late for anything but bed.

It's only 12:40 a.m. right now, so I thought I'd post here quickly.

I had a GREAT week last week.  I lost five pounds.  Then I baked cookies and ate some.  That was a couple of days ago.  And then I baked brownies.  And ate some.  And then I ate more cookies.

What is wrong with this picture?

(I know.  Stop baking, Mel.  What in the world is wrong with your brain?)

Okay, well, I'm confessing that to you because typing those words will help me be accountable for the rest of the week.  Even Halloween!  I am not eating Halloween candy this year.  I just will not.

In fact, I bought a gigantic bag of Costco Halloween candy.  I gave it to my husband after I bought it and told him to hide it from me.  He laughed as if I am a lunatic (I am a lunatic) and then hid it.  I could probably find it if I tried hard enough but I'm not going to even look.  Just having it out of my sight helps.  Knowing that he knows that I have so little self-control that I need him to hide it will keep me from sneaking into it. 

I hate to treat myself like a weakling, but I am a weakling.  A weakling who should stop baking.  FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS SUGARY.

Anyway.  Also?  I haven't started exercising yet.  I downloaded this really cool Couch to 5K app on my iPhone.  I am seriously in love with this app, but I haven't used it yet.  Monday it was too rainy.  Tuesday I was too tired (stayed up until nearly 2 a.m.).  Today I was tired (up until past 1:30 a.m.).  Tomorrow I'm not going to do it because I don't want to and also because I have some Halloween-related errands I have to run before I start work at noon.

But I am going to start.  Next week?  Maybe.  Maybe next week.  In the meantime, I'm going to eat right.  Stop this avalanche right here, right now before I'm buried.  No need to wait until Monday.  Tomorrow, I start over.

How are you doing? 

Comments

[Jill]

I got to three days of good eating and ate two big cookies. My sister made Halloween cookies with the kids and I am weak. Today is a new day. Awhile back you posed about the "last supper" before the diet. I think it a triumph not to turn the cookies and the brownies into a reason to eat cheeseburgers and fries. It is for me, one I will take to help me move on. Great for you on the five pounds lost!

[mjt]

I had a week just like that a while ago and lost 5 then, just like you back down the slippery slope. I love sugar so much that I hate it (if you know what I mean.)

[Ouida Gabriel]

I swear, when I lose 5 pounds it is like something in my head goes off and I start eating everything in sight. And while I don't 'have a weakness for sweet treats like cookies any longer, I am still horribly in love with Pepsi and Lattes. I really wanted to have lost at least a quarter of my weight this year and I didn't even come close. I only lost 10% of my to lose weight. Some of that was because I stopped nursing the baby too.

Now I feel depressed....

[Encourager]

Ok, Melodee, first of all, forgive yourself. RIGHT NOW. Today and the second and minute that just passed is over and done with. Everything else is ahead. That's AWESOME about last week's 5 pound weight loss, now focus on next week. As for the exercise- START RIGHT NOW. You can do it. Forget about organized programs, gyms etc- it is as easy as walking out your front door, and turning left or right and just walking. Just start with 20 minutes, 30 minutes, whatever you can squeeze into your schedule. YOU CAN DO IT. When you get home, write it down. That counts as exercise. Start small and increase a little each day. I PROMISE YOU that by starting this way, you will feel motivated to get out there and do a little more each day AND when you feel like "cheating" you won't because you know that you have to "pay" for it later. You have many people behind you and checking in on you. YOU CAN DO IT. Just dress warmly and listen to music as you walk. Oh, and don't worry about how you look or what other people may think. They probably started their weight loss journey by walking a little and getting out there every single day. And you will feel all the more better because of it. YOU CAN DO IT. Good luck.

[Sibby]

Isn't it tough? You always want to give in. It's like when it comes to eating, it's a constant battle against your brain. I'll never understand why our brains are wired the way they are. It seems like we're all built to implode or self-destruct. Shouldn't our bodies/minds crave the best foods? It seems so contradictory that we're built to want that which is worst for us. Anyway, I love the blog. If you ever get a chance, check out mine http://www.hungryformore.net, I just started it, and it's really helping me lose the pounds.

[MamaBearJune]

I had a short affair with a can of honey roasted peanuts the other night. :-) But I figure I'm not doing it 24/7, so an occasional snack like that isn't going to completely derail me. I won't let it. Today is a new day. I've had a hard time exercising, too. I've just felt too crappy. I decided I will take a 10 minute walk when I get up. Then later another walk. Need to step away from the laptop! RIGHT NOW! ;-)

[Mariah]

Five pounds? That's awesome! When I lose five pounds I usually have some kind of brain malfunction, sabotage the whole thing, and gain back seven. Does this mean I should just not lose the five in the first place?

(Just kidding. Not about the brain malfunction...kidding about not losing the five!)

On another note: must. start. blogging. again.

again.

Or I could just leave long comments here every day... ;-)

[Kini]

Hey Mel! One day at a time, but keep your goals in your sites... I just re-read all of your old posts over there to the right... "How to Get Fat in 10 Easy Steps" is my favorite.

Speaking of iPhone apps... what are your favorites? I like Fit Day, but I haven't seen an app for it. Have any suggestions?

[Diet Developments]

I can completely relate to your love of baked goods. The problem with baking is you're left with a large supply. Maybe try baking only half the recipe, and have that hold you out. Also, a lot of the time, it's about getting the taste of sugar, not a lot of it. So try baking smaller cookies, so if you go and grab two, you won't be having as many.

[Super Ninja Chubbly Pants]

Oh. MyGod. I just found your blog and am officially in love with you. (Not in a creepy way.) Love your candor, love you "real-ness". I'll be loyal forever now!

[EatingwhatICrave]

I love this post, because it's so me! I have been in constant contact with my kitchen for the past two months developing recipes that will allow me to eat the baked goods I love. And, I've decided to start eating what I crave to lose weight.