Exercise! And thinking, maybe too much.

I exercised twice this week.  I rode my long-neglected Schwinn exercise bike.  I used to ride it for 45 minutes a day, then I lessened that to 30 minutes a day.  I compromised and decided on 38 minutes. 

Honestly, it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be.  I like to read while I ride, so it's practically fun. 

I want to do a Couch-to-5K training thing I downloaded to my iPhone, but I am like a cat.  I hate to get my fur wet.  I just can't convince myself to leave my warm home in the morning to go into super-wet-windy-rainy-awful weather. 

I know.  I know.  There is no bad weather, only bad clothing.  Still.  I don't want to go outside, but I cannot use that as a reason not to exercise because I feel terrible.  I look terrible, but more importantly, I feel terrible.

I am almost 45 years old and I am insulin resistant.  I am in danger.  I know I am in danger.  I need to be healthy.

I wonder if the scale is making things worse.  When I get good news, I'm apt to eat in celebration.  When I get bad news, I'm likely to binge.

Maybe I should read Geneen Roth again.  Eat for satisfaction and move my body.  That sounds simple, right?

There are a whole string of things that I have artificially hooked to weight loss.  I must lose weight so I can go to that writer's conference.  I need to lose weight before I see old friends.  I need to lose weight before I join the gym.  (Yeah, figure out that one!)  I'm sequential to a fault.  I must do this, this, this and this, in THIS order or I may as well just crawl under the covers and sleep until spring.

It's ridiculous.  I know. 

But there you go.  Musings on a Saturday night. 

Comments

[Chibi Jeebs]

I'm the same way in regards to being outside in the yuck. I'd rather exercise outdoors, but I'm a big baby when it comes to rain (especially the rain & wind combo).

As well, I'm the same way with being sequential to a fault (love that: may have to borrow it!) to the point that I'll give up on a Tuesday because I ate a chocolate bar and will think to myself "Well, now I'll have to wait until MONDAY to start over!" because of the way I have things ordered in my head. Completely ridiculous!

[Encourager]

Yay Mel! So glad to hear that you exercised!! Way to go! Maybe you can try to do three times on the bike. Good for you. I went and bought a "resistance" band to do weights at home. I might pull them out of the box tomorrow. Have a good week ;-)

[MissKris]

"I wonder if the scale is making things worse"....YES!!!!!!!!

[Sunny]

You need to create an iPod playlist of all of your favorite dance songs of all time. Set it to shuffle. THEN DANCE. That (and South Beach kept to 1,200 calories a day) is how this old broad has lost 63 pounds in seven months, never having to "exercise" once or do it outside. I even do a half hour at lunch in a deserted room at my office. It's entirely mobile, and can be done anytime your heart desires, for however long (uninterrupted-that's the rule; no stopping between songs) you feel like it.

Hey, when my health became a real issue (and associated longevity), I let my natural mommy'ism take effect. (even though my daughters are mid 30's.) My grandma'ism, too. Am I going to cheat my family out of years/memories with me by dying prematurely? Once I faced that, really faced it, the rest has been pretty easy. (that, and delving deep within, early, to face my inner demons and why I was an emotional eater.) If I can do it, you CAN do it!

[Biz]

Sending hugs your way Mel! :D

Sadly, losing weight or even getting to goal weight is never the answer to "solve all your problems."

You only get one life to live - let's just take it one day at a time, it doesn't have to be all or nothing.

I challenge you to walk 15 minutes OUTDOORS every day this week - you can do it!

Then send me an email and let me know how you did! :D (bdl319@gmail.com)

[Jen]

Do it! I completed the couch to 5k program on my iphone and can now say I am down 20 lbs and have completed 2 5ks and a 10k. Running the full time! And I went from not being able to run the first minute and a half. You can do it, just focus on the one workout you are doing, not the end result. Much more manageable. You CAN do it!! Just focus on today and doing well in the moment.

[She-Ra]

My mom is insulin resistant also. Keeping the bad carbs out is important but so is the exercise. Without the exercise, her good eating doesn't have the same effect.

Keep at it - you can do it!!!